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Tuesday, February 02, 2010

~urgh. i see 22 coming its way.
~never mind. it is just unavoidable. ha.
~but my heart is still young.
~so i like to think of the good things in my life and well, pour away all my sorrows probably after talking to someone or eating a lot of food.

~i guess i am being silly. silly in doing silly things that probably never gets understood. it is a trap, sometimes. sometimes, i can hear the wall shouting "hey! this is reality. you are not leaving in dreamland!". but i just refused to wake up, going away with the idea that the world is filled with colorful flowers. so it is perhaps just normal to have really wonderful things in your life. your friends, your family, your career, your health, your everything. haha. what an ethopia. but i guess this can be called the silly theory. it is quite upsetting when i get to realise that in fact, no one will be there in actual fact when you need help. is the world getting more realistic or cruel or am i being too paranoid?

i am having this really pessimistic theory that no one is trustworthy and that is really bad. thinking about all this, i wonder whether i am really living for myself? sometimes i just feel that nothing gets appreciated to whatever that has been done. and that makes things really messed up. i am really sorry to offer such a upsetting tone in this blog entry. but well, i might be overexaggerating la. you know, sometimes in life, you need a channel to vent off things. so,ya,, you can choose to exit. lolz.

i should be more considerate. i should be more optimistic. hey! stay neutral!!! (that is something that i am always trying to tell myself. it is just so difficult sometimes. u noe, tug-o-war. ya.)

but after all this spills, tomorrow will be fine again. i know what i am working for. at least i know what i am working for. that keeps me going on. yea!!!

smile always
take care
(yanxing)2010

Sweet-ed <3
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