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Thursday, May 31, 2007

-->i have been trying to keep myself as busy as possible; so that i won't have anitime to think of anitink, probabli tat is the best way to keep myself awake and optimistic. but sometimes things just doesn't go the way you want, and obviously we can't always expect it to follow our way. we are not the masters of the world, after all.

-->Watched SHREK 3! it was wonderfully funny! hahaz. i wouldn't want to mention the details cause you should catch it yourself. though it is quite short probabli 92 mins, but if u tink u had just got one day of accusations and unfairness from some others, this show would definiteli make you forget a bad day that you might have. a show that might make you get out of reality for 92 mins. one bad thing abt watching such shows is that at the end you need to tell yourself you are not living in that kinda of world...which is quite sad unfortunately...my auntie once told me that we all come down to live in this world. and that will be onli ONCE. since we cannot change this fact, why not take this as a tour and make the best of it?

-->So i am seriousli trying to learn her words and be more positive. being negative is veri tiring actualli. thinking too far ahead is a torture. at least for me, it is now. whether or not wat might happen the next second, i just want to cherish the present.

smile always
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
3:29 AM


Sunday, May 27, 2007

27th mAy.
time realli flies, that fast 1/2 a year is going to end.
i am actualli amused by how i came over all this too. though it is indeed tough.

well, todae we celebrated mervy's bdae!
i hope he feels gd abt it, though it was realli simple and nth much. but ya...aniwae HAPPY EARLY B'DAE!
finalli saw jocelyn!
she is still duh same...hahaz, optimistic and friendly and nice.
...
the birthdae was okie i guess...but i thought it could be better if the celebration was on 31st instead...
but never mind, i guess it is the events that are more impt...

okie, i am typing this in a veri rush manner.
so don mind
aniwae,
i am not feeling too fine at this moment.
hahaz.
okok.

may we all do our best.

smile always
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
6:32 AM


Sunday, May 20, 2007

1111pm

49 more mins and 20th may officially ends.
what am i suppose to look forward next?
actualli...i am not too sure also.

today had dinner with sandy, yl, mervy. though simple, but it was quite meaningful cox we did talk quite a bit. hahaz. went to sing in the afternoon too. this year's celebration is quite : ) for me because it is simple yet meaningful in every bit. though 2 days this time round passed as if it was only 2 hours, but it is really veri memoriable already. to think i have actually celebrated 19 years of my birthday..or did i not?

19 years...
loads of people to thank.
my family and my wonderful siblings,
my friends especially rebel
the loveli grp of interact club ppl who would always remember my b'dae
my jc class and clique who are realli gd and nice pplz.
and those who have made me learn a lesson from them one way or another...

aniwae, why am i writing all this out of a sudden?
i think i am already very happy..
so happy that probably any upsetting moment could just destroy me.
okie...i should be more optimistic.

but i realli treasure the ppl i mentioned.
so that makes me....
well, silly me.

when life has nothing more to look forward to,
it is not easy to walk and move on.
doraemon
seemed to be the onli motivation?

aniwae, i didn't rcv anitink to do with doraemon this yr.
and i was actualli quite disappointed. hahaz.
i dunno why too
so i went to buy something related to doraemon for my birthdae this year.
probabli it has followed me for so long...
since 1998
when my aunite bought the 1st ever watermelon doraemon keychain for me...
and it has been with me for 9 years...
hahaz.


i need a space to breathe.

smile always
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
8:04 AM


Saturday, May 19, 2007

it is now 1235am now...

and it is 20th MAY! and i am so : ) hahaz.
it has a wonderful early birthday celebration.

all started in 18th may first where i celebrated with jc clique @ white tangerine in kovan...okie la...veri nan de tat we get to meet also...then crapped a lot...they gave me a bottle and a shirt and a veri cute card! actualli i think it is quite well-done especially the doors and their messages...hmmz. realli appreciate tat much!

19th may was another celebration with REBEL. and seriousli I AM VERI HAPPY! hahaz. cox it has been so long since i see all 9 (cox jocelyn is still in china and she will be back 1 day later!) hahaz...yup.much thanks to them that all of them actually came. seriousli, that is so much more impt than anything else. hahaz. so i am realli happy. i don't know, but i just feel that it is veri nan de...initialli had food at M.O.F (Ministry of Food)...the food there is damn nice. that is all i can SAY. hahaz. got 7 ppl at first la. then chit-chatted and they got me to change to another shirt that they bought. haz. afterwhich we went to giraffe which is a place with veri wonderful ambience where each of us ordered a cocktail. jm and ll came and all 9 of us were there! hahaz. i think the cocktail i ordered tasted the worst hahaz...and it was like the heaviest type. mel was abt to be drunk baz...hahaz...den mervy and jm face is red like anything....somemore the waiter even wanted to "da shan"jiamin...hahaz..took loads and loads of photos...i think i did not miss out anyone in any grp photos? hahaz...gt me a fruit cake too! by the time we finished our drinks and crapped for a moment, time already ticked to around 1045pm...i just feel very glad and very touched that we are still one no matter what happens. hmmz. i guess this is what friendship is all about. more importantly, i really thank them much for such a simple yet meaningful celebration! as for me, i do hope this year will be a good year ahead especially to my family and friends. guess i will be soon organising the next birthdae? hahaz...then have to look for ideas within 1 wks time! and jocelyn is coming back too! and 10 of us will be able to meet again! woohoo!!!

indeed the last day of 18 has been veri special. it marked the end of my JC education with the collection of my rewards and SGC and a group of wonderful friends that celebrated my birthday...always there to move me on.

smile always,
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
9:28 AM


Sunday, May 13, 2007

it is 2145 hrs now...

going to book in at 2330 hours
hopefully this week will be finez...

i know i will be alright.

i just realised todae is mother's day.
probably that is the reason why she is so hot-tempered today.
or maybe not.

okie...
i think i wll be finez.


smile always
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
6:36 AM


Saturday, May 12, 2007

hmmz. indeed learning is something hard.

be it academically, physically, socially, mentally...
Learning is a never-ending and unpredictable process.
18 is going to end for me soon and i am going to say hello to 19 very soon.
hmmz.
actually i don't know what i am typing also.
but......

just think that everyone has their own stories.
that can be a learning experience for us.
"learn lessons from others""...sounds familiar...haz.

am i realli OK
i don't know.
but hopefully YES.
i know that there are many people supporting me.

smile always
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
10:23 AM


Thursday, May 10, 2007

音乐: 那年夏天你宁静的海...

我记得...
好多好多美好的事.
单现实却把美好除掉了.
或许很多都是要我们自己去创造的...

(现在我就当过去, 是种学习
虽然好不容易...)


人生或许总要面对一些不如意
虽然这是很辛苦的阶段
但我们好像都要学着接受, 适应
讽刺的是, 为什么我们却不能放下走得太快的步伐
给予自己多一点呼吸的空间...
还是只要停止
我们就会被社会淘汰...

音乐: 淘汰

或许一直以来放不下的是我吧...
时不时被美好的记忆给纠缠着
活在以为很自我的世界里...
却从来没有想过人生还有那么多无法预料的事
以为只是戏里会发生的事
却真实的在现实中上演...
人生如戏...
是那样?
我也想很多人一样
回到从前...

音乐: (我怀念的...)

所以这阵子...
差一点就崩溃了
幸好友人在一旁拉我一把...
虽然很难,太多让我坚持的事了...

(空气中
呼吸都凝滞着..
我让思考放空

当黑夜清晰过白昼
当快乐赔上了所有
当理智逃不过放纵

每个路口怎么转都错
就这样漂浮着
悲伤地穿梭
.......)

所以我当时好像逃避
越远越好...

(好像捂住耳朵
不想不看不想听谁说
好像蹲在角落
把谴责的眼光都躲过
像个黑色漩涡将我吞没...)


...

或许这一切...
都可以扭转
至少我还相信
所以
也因此
我决定在振作一次.
为了那么多我不可以辜负的人..

(我要快乐
我要能睡的安稳...)


smile always
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
6:17 AM


Monday, May 07, 2007

决定让自己从压抑很久的心情慢慢痊愈
不然那也不是办法

可是该怎么调养呢?
四天里...

我放纵了自己一天
接下来我要让自己好好思考一天
第三天解决问题
然后再找回从前那个真实的我.

慢慢的找寻生活的方式.
调整现在的步伐

今天就做了一件傻事
其实那是不应该的
可是...
算了.
只希望接下来会好一点.
就算只是一点.

真的.
梦游着...

smile always
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
8:03 AM


Friday, May 04, 2007

沉静在自己的世界里,
慢慢地让自己自我堕落
那么在心灵上我们都是否已经一步步逼近
忧郁呢?

其实, 我真的很无助
好希望时间在下一秒停止
第一次那么希望明天就是世界末日
我承认
我好像快受不了了
抓不住那拯救我的绳索
只想放手
可笑吧...
就连生存的斗志 也逐渐消失了...
接下来的路该如何走下去
就连我自己也忘了.

最好什么都忘了
失去一切的所有
回到最初的起点
但终究还要回来不是吗?

快被着凝重的气氛打败了.
18 岁
那 19 岁 呢?
哈哈
我看不到呢...

smile always
take care
(yX) 2007

Sweet-ed <3
11:18 PM