Saturday, September 27, 2008
-->september is ending. october is coming <--
but the end of this month does not seem good.
okie the month has not end yet. so i hope things will turn for the better.
hmmz. how i wish i can talk abt how i feel abt my 1 yr 8 mths now...but wait.
let it put to an end first. besides, i still have some more days to go.
this few days has been not veri good for me.
no outings. okie that is nth to complain abt.
i tried to start running more. actually probably not a lot compared to many. after that day, i actually sprained by ankle. and it seemed to getting worse everyday. but i still walked rather naturally. of coz...only 1 friend managed to realize.
i lost my beads. my beads that my aunty bought for me since the day i stepped into the army and i have no idea where it was placed at. and i am actually quite sad. because it has given me a lot of hopes. probably because i take it as part of myself already. so when i see there is nothing on my wrist, i actually feel very weird.
one of my tutees vent his stress on me. he said that tuition is probably a waste of time. and that what i taught him seemed not applying. and that i became the cause why he did so badly for his class test. because i told him the wrong thing. and afterwhich, he just looked the other way. said quite hurting remarks (at least for that moment i thought it was)...i wanted to just walk out because i was already very disappointed. because i actually walked with a limp for so far to his house, because i have always telling him what to do but he has never really paid attention to what i say...but i did not leave. that is because i know i am responsible partly for his results since i started tutoring him, that i am responsible to his parents. so i just carried on. but i told him he can always choose to terminate. and in fact, i am quite tired of tuition. all i can do now is to push his results so that at least he do much better for his final year.
when i was walking back home, all this just came to my mind.
keep running...just for 1 moment, i felt a bit helpless.
but i know very well that all i can do is work harder.
oh, please don't tell me that i look very free okie.
i admit that my job scope is so much more less tedious, but if travelling here and there everyday and having to........ok. stop me. i should not complain. i know that very well.
on a lighter tone...
i got my S.H.E CD! finally! i like some of the songs though. 7/10.
i still did meet some of my clique ppl this saturday.
i am making new christmas stuffs (ok, i know it is a bit early...but it makes me happy.)
i am resting at home on saturday...(Finally after few hrs of sleep everidae)
i finished watching Moonlight Renonsiance. (don't know spelling correct not).