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Tuesday, July 17, 2007

2 weeks of course plus 2 days has finalli ended. rather peacefully. i must admit that though there are some areas room for improvement especially in the organisation of time and some of the weird people there, i like the course veri much. at the veri least, i am assured home everidae after a one day drill and there are people whom i can look forward to see to. that is the difference. seriousli, i think i am quite useless. useless as in the sense that i am not veri courageous to face up to facts, to admit to many things and that...i dunno what is wrong with me seriousli. i just want to be like a normal adult, who is able to grow up, get a decent job, get married...that's it. but now even this seemed far with all such stuffs cause i am seriousli stress-affected. wadever the case, it is not the physical part that is driving me all over. it is just how the society is moving and how it is a dog eats dog world that makes it dreadful for life to carry on. you just can't sense any sense of security and friendliness in your work arena. when you know jolly well you have to continue for like another "m"months.

pLease give me space to breathe, so that i won't take things so hardly. more importantly, i cannot imagine the country that we are living in. or is it that the fault lies with the person? must high living standards be in xchange for all such rules and regulations that we simply got to move so cautiously? it makes you so tensed up and get you on tenterhooks. wadever.


i am simply just a loser in this reality game and i hate it.
so can i re-throw the dice and get on to a better game?
i doubt so. cause you can't choose. it is the game that chooses you.
that is just how life works. if i could realli pen down my complaints in detail, (which obviously i cannot), i would have written 100 essays already.

take care
smile always
(yX) 2007

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