Doraemon

Monday, October 31, 2005

28th oCtober "officially" marks the end of my Year 1 (that excludes PW though) Year 2 will oficially start for me at late november. i guess. dotx. hahax.

<--A year has passed. i remembered how i actualli hated to leave my secondary school to now that i have actually passed 1 year and moving on to 2006. though it is not december yet, i thought i should round up the whole school term of this year.

-->2005 has been a tough time for rebel. i guess so, at least. where the group was officially formed at year 2004 ( i think) and soon after, we got divided by the divison of 5-3-2...5 SR, 3 PoLy, 2 NY.
i was realli upset that time. cox i tot it would drain friendships and all that...(k that is not the main point anymore.)

-->reBel has went through its ups and downs in 2005. recalling all the blogs that i have ever tagged about rebel, it is definitely inevitable the times we meet are lesser. so much lesser that every month it was just right for me to make sure myself to ask "how is XXX doing?"...it is realli nan de that rebel (full strength) gathers together. above 5 would already be veri good sometimes. the feeling of gathering is already something nice. even though it meant to do nothing. i start to realise the meaning of scaring to drift apart. i don't want it to happen. under rebel, there are some people whom i will clique most with. i was rather sad when i realised that i was not able to be around them when they felt happy and sad at times. the past 4 years, no matter what happen, at least after school, i will know how they feel and how they are that moment. for now...it just seemed too difficult. but thankfully, everyone had tried their best to meet up this year of 2005 and i must say that there were gatherings where the full strength turned up. but it has been rather months that we have ever do so. when will it be? looking forward to this schoold hols...something that will refresh our strong friendship bonds. everything will be better for this hOls. CONFIRMED. CHOP. SIGNED (dotx)hAx.

-->i feeL expecially bAd when i hear my close frienDs who told me after a few weeks later that they actually felt sad or watever wks ago either through the phone or personally and i realise that i actualli didn't take the effort to ask them how they were feeling this few days. sometimes, you just feel so down when you cannot do anitink to help your friend when they are feeling depressed or sad. You just stand there and watch. as if you are like a woodblock. recently, this feeling gets stronger. (dotx) okie. aniwae, my gd friend told me that he actualli was veri sad 1 moment. and i realised that i actualli didn't know abt it after he told me. another incident. i onli knew she was caught in her own world and no one informed her about what happened after 2 days. suddenli i feel so lost. but isn't this natural? imagine ur clique had so mani similiar commitments previously and now, remaining not much...and formation of new cliques... blax blax blax...the conclusion is that me myself will feel so bad that i wasn't aware of my veri gd friends feelings.

<--AnyWay, i kNow that reBel will stay Strong and even stronger for the coming holidays. though the 10 months had not been easy for all of us, where we previously practically met almost everyday, but i believe this coming holidays will be a strong medicine to cure the awkwardness. definitely!!! think we will be meeting this friday evening. hope that full strength can meet. feels so much like a small family with 9 siblings! hahax. so much right. (dotx)...guess i will have fun this coming november! : )

-->As for my reflections to each of my siblings this year of 2005, don't think i will blog in here(give 'em individually?) haX....aniwae still got 2 more months before i caN conclude this year...so this just acts a small one... i guess my blog will be 400 pages long @ 31st december 2005....hahax.

<--okie. that's all
-->rebel forevA friEnds
<--smile always
-->take care
<--(yX)

Sweet-ed <3

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