Sunday, August 31, 2008
okie. hopefully i can finish this before 12am.
so that i am granted 6 hrs of sleep. shit. another rounds of dark circles will join me again.
they have been my friends since secondary school times. hahaz.
went out todae with my interact grp. talked quite a bit as usual. played one drum game which i quite like. play 1 ball game which is good for de-stressing. hahaz.
sundaes are seriously quite unlikeable. and likeable too.
i don't know how to describe it really.
宁静的夜晚。
走在几乎没有人的路上。
很多事情好像都消失了。
思绪也慢慢沉淀了。
却又好像迷失了。
寂静的夜晚。
一种莫名的感觉来袭。
有些难过，有些孤独，有些自由, 有些不知所措。
我的内心世界有一点混乱。
很多的其实，很多的虽然，很多的也许，很多的可能。
很多的愿望。
多到我的脑袋偶尔也负荷不了自己。
我希望现在的我依然是往着灯火通明的地方行走去。。。
smile always
take care
(xing) 08
Sweet-ed <3
8:47 AM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
oh. gosh. i am very tired. i don't know why. probably just today. a lot of draining from my tuiton student. a bit disappointed. but well, never mind. i just need to perform my job. i know i am a stay-out. lolz. but well. there are a lot of perspectives you need to view from. sometimes.
i need more cash. so that i can fly. fly to somewhere i don't know where. sometimes i am just so tired that i wish i could float on the water. then just drift for like 1 hour. yes 1 hour only. because every minute counts. hahaz. but too bad. i can't really swim. not even to talk about balancing ok.
met up with rebel to watch a movie yesterday. erm. better not talk about it. hahaz. "exclusive showcase" somemore....i tot it would be like "WOW!"...and it turned out to be "huh. orh." hahaz. well, i wonder how come movie critics can give it such good comments. or probably i don't live in that generation. or just simply, different people have different perspectives.
人啊。
还是不要想太多比较好。
不明白？
就是想很多是一件很累的事。
有一点庸人自扰的感觉。
何必让自己苦恼？
就好像，
不要以为两个人望着你聊天就是再说你的是非。
不要以为一个人好像对你好一点，就以为那或许是爱情。
不要以为什么只要给他多五个机会， 它就会无条件地为你改变。
不要以为只要是下雨天，心情就要很难过。
不要以为因为少了谁，这世界就会突然宣布灭亡。
不要以为。。。
或许他们只是在简单地交谈。
或许他对每个人都是一样的。 不确定？其实是没有吧。只是不想承认。
或许离开好一点。
或许在下雨天时，也可以在雨中嬉水， 聆听着大自然所赐予的。多么美的音乐。
或许他希望你能活得更快乐啊。
或许。。。
就放开吧。
学会爱自己多一些。
学会让自己更了解自己。
我们总是很自以为地以为我们很了解自己。
其实，不然。
就是因为不同的事情，不同的人，不同的时间，
我们在学会慢慢成长。
每个人总有自己要学习的成长过程吧。
上的课是一样的。
都是在学习如何成长。
只是形式上的不一样。
要知道，人生也只有一次。
为了不重要的是而让自己难过，不快乐，
那不是很对不起自己吗？
我们都一样。
只是顺序的问题。如此而已。
smile always
take care
(xing) 08
Sweet-ed <3
2:07 AM
Sunday, August 10, 2008
oh. here again. this is probably one of my freeist weekend of the year. only have tuition. i am suppose to go to my grandma house today. but ok la next week. i need to pack my cupboard. hopefully. realise tuition is a bit hard sometimes. especially when you cannot balance the expecations of the parent and the student. sometimes, i seriously think parents should find out what their children want. too much stress...can be a very bad thing.
i don't know what is wrong with people younger than me. well. not all of course. probably i really cannot get into their world or something. it goes to show that the older you are, the more you can see. i can't see where my long term goals are because i don't have the abilities to think that far yet. what i can see right now is that i need to learn to be more independent so that i will be able to take care of the others. if i can't even fend for myself, how can i even make others happy?
though i admit i do get influenced by my own emotions when i see people feeling down.
what would you do if you meet a friend one day and when you find that he/she is quite different from other days?
you would...
(a) ask directly why he/she looks as if he/she is going to die tomorrow.
(b) keep quiet and pretend that nothing happens.
(c) try to cheer him/her up by talking craps
(d) talk about your own sad stories so that he/she would feel better.
i guess all of us have tried all these above responses right.
you realise that after using all of them, none works.
but the best way is definitely (b). Just wait and see. Because you are never sure what will happen next. so, just keep quiet. i guess everyone has their problems to face everyday. well.
whether you want it to carry it with yourself or leave it behind. that is really up to you. or better, solve it. well, but some are never meant and will be solved...
here is a pyschological test i found from a blog...
you can try it out!
巴士上，鄰座睡著的人把頭靠在你肩上，你會怎麼辦呢？
Ａ、忍耐
Ｂ、用肩膀推回去
Ｃ、離開座位
Ｄ、不會覺得不快也不加以理睬
Ａ：受到外來攻擊卻內心忍耐的被動性格，故你的壓抑度相當高。在戀愛方面，即使知道對方不能善待自己，但從開始交往就無法自拔了，在這種情況下，壓抑程度會如雪球般滾大。
Ｂ、用肩膀推回去Ｂ：用肩膀推回去 雖會反抗但並不能獲得成功，仍是無法擺脫壓抑的消極性格，戀愛時不能清楚說出對對方不滿之處，所以你是經常會壓抑自己的人。
Ｃ、離開座位Ｃ：為了排除壓抑，採取逃避的態度，你能夠很有要領的從壓抑中逃脫，但是到達極限時，便只有退縮而束手無策，即使想和對方分手也不會清楚的表達，只好選擇讓感情自然的轉淡。
Ｄ、不會覺得不快也不加以理睬Ｄ：並不會去排除壓抑，也不會逃避，而是以事不關己的態度去加以克服，故你屬於硬幹型的人。如果被男友拋棄，外表看起來堅強不在乎，但其內心卻已破碎。如果你喜歡的她是這種性格的人，不妨多關心她吧！
Sweet-ed <3
1:55 AM
Saturday, August 09, 2008
越来越喜欢林有嘉德的声音。非常具有伸缩性。唱什么都很有自己的风格。最近迷上了《慢一点》。真的很不错！
好像很久没写什么了。
或许因为人生总是有好多个不一样的事情在同一事件发生，一下子也记录不下来。
其实，我越来越不知道自己的方向了。
我想很多人都有过类似的感觉。
当我们到达了一个预定的目标时，突然间原先的动力好像瞬间般的消失。
这算得上是在埋怨吗?
所以我总是必须提醒自己是很幸福的。也因为如此，无论如何，也要努力付出比别人多一倍的努力。
说到这里。
我不得不说。
我真的很羡慕那些家境富裕的人。
虽然这么说好像有一点不应该，可是这是事实。
有时候会想如果大家一开始的起点是一样的话，
那会更公平吧。
但换个角度想想，或许是老天爷要我们这种人更努力，才能享受到自己的果实。
也对，如果我一出世就很有钱，我就不会像要太努力吧。
很多时候，
心情的好与坏，
真的只是在一线之间。
这真的是要看我我们看待事物的角度。
如果现在还在为钱烦恼，倒不如想想如何快点找到一份稳定的工作。整天烦恼是于事无补的。
如果现在还因为考试而担心，倒不如学会释放一些压力，让自己的心情更平静。
如果现在还因为单身而感到郁闷，倒不如换个角度，能一个人自由地过着生活也很快乐的。
如果现在还因为任何的事情而看不开，
那就不要想了。做一些让自己快乐的事。
好好地吃一顿，
大声地唱歌，
放肆地去玩一场游戏，
胡乱地购物，
只要能够让自己比较快乐，
偶尔放纵，
何乐而不为？
我也一样。在工作上遇到不顺心的事，看见不想看见的人，
也会觉得不开心。
但是只要知道我的周末会有朋友陪伴，
回到家里有人可以倾诉，
或者买一本很喜欢的书还是专辑。。。
那也是很快乐的。
千万不要把一切都收着。
我们的情绪可能随时会相计时炸弹。。
看开一点，很多事就都不是问题了。
smile always
take care
(xing) 08
Sweet-ed <3
5:05 AM
Sunday, August 03, 2008
ohoh.
just some quick updates here
life is still as usual.
things are as usual.
got a realli short haircut.
that will allow me not to cut another 2 months. lolz
the person also cut wrongly because i was simply sleeping throughout the cut.
and i think she is a trainee
hahaz.
the gd thing i don think i have to cut so soon la.
and i can probably wait till i ORD.
and cut something i want
oh....
i am still as glad.
just some really irritating stuffs that happens in work at times.
but weekends are always quite forward-looking.
tuitions too.
just that i will feel a bit not myself
just that sometimes i will feel...huh. what is after that. and just stone.
just that well, i guess i am probably 20.
oh. and we are celebrating the 43rd birthday!
hahaz. i am 23 years younger. i should be relieve about that.
okie.
time to move on again for another new week!
smile always
take care
(xing) 08
Sweet-ed <3
4:30 AM
