i love may. though this may might turn out to be a different. BUT NO WAY! NO ONE IS GOING TO DESTROY MY LOVELY MAY! hahaz....
how was may last year?? it was wonderful....hahaz. hopefully it will be gd this year too... todae went K BOX. how long have i not went? probably not too long ago. but this time feels much better. at least i felt comfortable with myself.
.... i guess some choices are made by ourselves. we twist our own fate when they are meant to be that way. are we being stubborn or trying to make things better? actually i myself find it confusing too. actually we are all selfish. ain't it so? as we grow older, we try more to protect ourselves and restrict ourselves to a boundary that makes it hard for people to enter...
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sometimes i veri tired. and i will start questioning myself some really dumb questions...like when i am living in where i am. why am i in somewhere where i don't like....oh...and i will feel life being miserable and all sorts of stuff....even feel like just collapsing like that....but when i see the many things that surround me, i feel myself being SERIOUSLY DUMB. there are just too many people who are even having more troubles than me, but they continue to move on with their lives although it is tough. i saw the old man who was selling kopi at a veri old age with a hunchback....why does he have to earn a living at such an age? shouldn't he be enjoying himself? and another guy who needed someone's help to hail a cab....and only had $4 left to go to hougang and looked sorry for not having enough money when he was talking to the taxi-driver.... so i wonder. why are we still so complacent abt where we are. failures, i guess they are just meant to be incorporated into our lives. growing up is never easy. but there are people not even or denied a chance to do so. so how can i be feeling upset at this moment? that makes me evil...
so i am going to live everidae w/o regrets... for i don't know when will i be denied of what i have now. though i might not be financially rich, but i need to be mentally rich.... hahaz. sometimes, taking a step out makes you see another world. and you will understand that you are really veri fortunate already.
hmmz. here goes a long weekend. how 80 hours can just leave like that. that is why...
i think i don't like to look back. especially the secondary school days. simply bring back all those beautiful memories....and at times where we had totalli NO worries. where worries simply got over in 1 day. at most. ya....i should not complain. ya ya. i noe. but i am not complaining. i am just trying to say things that are realli taking place.....
unfortunately, this battle seemed to be dreadfully long no matter how we try to convince ourselves how time passes, and how the happy moments just pass us w/o even taking a winkle.
dreadz..... i realli miss the old days. just let me say it once more time. though how much we always tell ourselves never to look back and to stay strong. how i wish i were.
don't put in logical words to me now. it doesn't always work this way. there is always a price to pay. for the luxury we are living in. too heavy. mentally. physically.
i am like... totally drained. mabi not.
i need something. that brings myself back to where i stood. for i will then continue to bring my happiness around.
smile always take care (yX) 2007
Sweet-ed <3
2:50 AM
Friday, April 06, 2007
todae was Jia min's birthdae celebration!!!
hahaz....8 of us were there.....and i haven been that happy for quite some time....we went to Marina for Steamboa at around 5 plus then after that had fondue at Andersens! and something funny happened in the middle of our way to Marina Square! okie....that made my day and i laughed until fatigue....hahaz. to think of it, we are moving to the 7th year le! woohoo! hahaz.....and next up is my birthdae!!! (just a gentle reminder...haha)
well, todae is a rare occasion that i can just forget all those worries!
hmmz.more to be updated again.
smile always take care (yX) 2007
Sweet-ed <3
9:08 AM
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